Six months ago today, the cardiac department wouldn’t let me leave the hospital after an echocardiogram and admitted me to the ER for emergency heart surgery that saved my life! All that pressure on my heart being gone relieved my cough eventually.
Next Wednesday, Oct 2nd will be the 6-month mark of femur surgery. I couldn’t walk or dress my lower half by myself, and now look at me cruising around and not needing help to change outfits. 🙂 Still not fully recovered. I get around just fine though. Going up stairs is still challenging and a little painful in the hip, and totally doable!
Six months ago, my back and ribs hurt so much I ate ibuprofen all day every day. Hmm, well, this one hasn’t really changed that much. Back surgery aside, I enjoyed the effects of radiation to my spine for a couple of months because it relieved the majority of my pain.
Six months ago, I would go to work, not really wanting to. What I wanted to do was just lie down, or at least put my head on my desk and take a little nap. All day. Cancer was killing me right before all our eyes, and I just thought it was bronchitis or pneumonia or the most persistent cough in the world. And my everything hurt.
I still have days when I just want to lie my head down on my desk at work because I’m tired and hurting. I don’t. I can go to my car and take a rest if I need to during lunch. I often do because it helps my back chill out for a little bit. The feeling of wanting to lie down at work alarms me and reminds me of how I felt last winter. Now that feeling goes away though. Yes, with the help of a pain pill here and there. I get relief. I can breathe. I can do meditations that require breathing and not have to stop to cough or because I can’t breathe. I know it sounds silly to be so grateful for something so essential. I did a breathing exercise the other night, and I thought to myself, six months ago, I couldn’t do this. Take a look at me now!